February 2012
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June
I love life. And people. And I would like to think that I am a good person. However, lately I have begun to lose myself. I am still not completely sure who I am, but I do know that I am not very comfortable with the current version of Joshua. I have tried to look for happiness in people, friends, materialism, other peoples ideas, partying, alcohol, keeping healthy, running, and that is fine, it’s...
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“Valor is strength, not of legs and arms, but of heart and soul; it consists not in the worth of our horse or our weapons, but in our own.”
“The world says: “You have needs — satisfy them. You have as much right as the rich and the mighty. Don’t hesitate to satisfy your needs; indeed, expand your needs and demand more.” This is the worldly doctrine of today. And they...
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Heavy night
Heavy night it was a heavy night Feels like we’ve come back from the dead Heavy night it was a heavy night I cannot remember what I said to anyone If we get up now we can catch the afternoon Watch the under 15s playing football in the park Let’s sit in Civic in this alcoholic day we’re doing the best with what we’ve got
I work hard all week, and so do you We deserve to...
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A dream within a dream
I dreamt that I was in my old home town waiting to board a train. It was snowing rather hard, very clear, but freezing cold. I was in a hurry because I was about a half block away from the train and I need to get there quickly but I was also being careful not to slip in the snow. As I was walking towards the train out of the corner of my left eye I saw something very shiny twinkling in the...
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We could wait forever
The place was adequate; it worked, and you could tell they had looked forward to this. But something wasn’t right. I mean, they were certainly trying to make it work, weaving in and out of small talk, and holding on to anything that make make them relate to each other; but once the awkwardness became unbearable, there wasn’t much to do.
All there was left was the check, and that sigh of relief...
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Chill
Sometimes you just need to sit back and laugh at yourself. Whether it’s because of an embarrassing moment, a mistake you’ve made, tough day at work, a relationship that didn’t go as expected, or just simply looking at your reflection in the mirror; people sometimes forget that life has given us these precious flaws to strengthen our souls. You really shouldn’t take yourself so seriously all the...
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“You know these moments, when you’re listening to fucking awesome music...”
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January 2012
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A girl fell asleep on my shoulder on a public bus today for about 20 minutes, it was kinda cute. At first I was like, this awkward, but she was quite pretty, and had cool fashion sense, so I just went with it. After she woke up, she just smiled. Little moments like that make life awesome
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“It’s a great thing where creativity, in it’s purest form, triumphs...”
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"Making it" as a (pro) musician (Pt.1)
It seems there is always people, artists and musicians inquiring about “living the dream” as a muso in a awesome original band, touring the world and making amazing records, or as a composer. Most of the time they are met with replies about how it is like winning the lottery, how you better have a back up plan, how you should just be a weekend warrior etc. It is true that trying to make it in a...
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I was actually 100% ready to delete this blog, but when i just went to do it today, i couldn’t. I just love all you people, and enjoy reading about your lives. Fuck it, lets keep this blog going. Bit of a facelift though
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Dream life
Dream life, I realized, was only confusing when you were awake. It was from the perspective of waking life that dream life seemed fractured and lacking consequence, lacking any certainty that one thing led to another. But from within dream life, the world was generally coherent. Not exactly an unconfusing world—just no more confusing than any other.
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Live in the moment, really.
It’s my birthday week. Which is awesome, everybody loves their birthdays. I was thinking and reflecting the past year, about how fast it went, and how seemingly small our lives seem in the scheme of everything. Modern society is not exactly a healthy place for young minds. We are a generation that risks indifference and emotional anaesthesia, robbed off the possibility of rebellion, and what we...
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“Lie Still. I’ve never done this before. There will be blood.”
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WatchDrum and bass cover of Judith by A Perfect Circle. Myself on the bass guitar. Such an amazing song from one of my top ten albums of all time.
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Stranger
Enemy of mine, I’ll fcuk you like the devil.
Violent inside, beautiful and evil.
I’m a ghost. You’re an angel.
We’re one and the same, just remains of an age.
Lost in a day dream, what do you see?
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Ambience. Breathe.
Breathe life, we all have pains and losses over the years, we as humans are always rushing around, we are always in a hurry, and we miss alot of the beauty in the world. As I was pondering my true well being in this society, I glanced upon ambience, travelling the greatest depths of my mind, to discover a new world in my soul, delving into the unknown void were my mental gain transcends into...
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December 2011
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2012
I would like to wish you all a happy new year. Make the most of the year to come and fulfil it with the best positivity you can give, smiles all round, have a wonderful evening. Remember, good things do eventually happen to good people :) x
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Life isn’t about keeping score. It’s not about how many people call you and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dating, or haven’t dated at all. It isn’t about who you’ve kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It’s not about your shoes or your hair or the colour of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact,...
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Nightmares
So I have been having a few nightmares lately, more than normal. We all know nightmares are not that enjoyable. There has been one that happened a few weeks ago that has really stuck with me. Every detail is still very vivid. The colours, the sounds, the taste, the panic.
I was outside a house in the country, in a big open space. The land was very flat, with only the odd tree here and there, and...
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Conservatively, if I worked moderately hard and gave away a third of my lifetime income, I could avert around 1500 unnecessary deaths from treatable disease (not even getting into the potentially much higher returns from animal welfare charities, existential risk reduction and so on). What sort of a monster would I have to be not to do that?
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So many ideas. So little memory.
We wanna go somewhere else. We’re not threatened by people anymore. All our insecurities have evaporated. We’re in the clouds now. We’re wide open. We’re spacemen orbiting the earth. The world looks beautiful from here, man. We’re nympholeptics, desiring for the unobtainable. We risk sanity for moments of temporary enlightenment. So many ideas. So little memory. The last thought killed by...
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Christmas
Man, I like Christmas. I want that special feeling around Christmas to last all year long, the positive inspiration to continue to filter down, and the cheer to be always present. I love the excitement of decorating and the anticipation of waiting for Santa to arrive (Yes, he is real, hater, don’t debate me on this). I love the kinder hearts of people who are more generous and more forgiving...
November 2011
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The epicenter of the human emotion.
The soul, forget about the “real” world, the physical, and open yourself up to real world within. The place where your dreams come from. The epicenter of the human emotion. The origin of all inquiry. The largest of large. The place where one is eternal. No matter what you do, whether you are sleeping or awake, alive or dead, this place is where “you” really are. If you know...
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“We are the makers of music, and the dreamers of dreams.”
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Terrorists, God, eternity and the Dark side of...
Terrorists focus on big ideas. It could be said that there are no greater idealists than terrorists. Most of them revere the notions of God and holy justice, and for someone like myself who is deeply idealistic, it is very disturbing. People who are open spiritually are open to being manipulated more easily and can be very vulnerable. The religious instinct is a very pure one, but unless met with...
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Big questions
I have got heaps of questions with people asking about my belief system, so my next blog post will hopefully answer that. It is going to be huge, i thought about dividing it into three separate sections, but it is read best as one. I just want to say, before i post it, that i am not forcing my opinion on anyone. I am merely putting out what i think, at this very moment. Its real and honest. The...